Blegh

blegh blegh blegh blegh blegh blegh

I want to crawl into a hole and sleep until the end of time.


"I'd send a postcard to you dear, because I wish you were here. I'll watch the night turn light blue, but it's not the same without you. Because it takes two to whisper quietly."

"Grandma"

Best Friends...

Are more precious then Diamonds.

And losing them, makes you sick.

Music and Art

They tie together, so simply complex.


Risa sent me this song today. It made me want to dance and sing. Music has so much power over our souls. The chello makes me melt. And the amazing piano in this song locks my gaze.



Yesterday in my ceramics class I learned the very old Japanese firing technique of Raku. "Raku" means "happiness by chance." This so so true. It was just by chance I was in this ceramics class which taught Raku. I *love* it. You heat the pot in a garbage can like kiln, until it is glowing hot. Then you take the piece out and move it to a different garbage can with newspaper in it. The heat from the pot lights the paper on fire. The thermic shock between cans causes cracks that become black with the smoke. It is beautiful. The whole thing from the beginning, then burning garbage cans, and finally a beautiful vase, or pot. Here are a few pictures of Raku.

Heat

I freaking love the heat. It's amazing. Today I slipped from the ciaos of life and onto the trampoline. Bouncing in the heat waves, laughing in the shade, swimming in the smell of grass, sweat, and fabric. Summer is wonderful. Today it was in the 90s and delicious.

Grass and Love

.. Go hand in hand.

My dance

Cleaning, dancing
Spinning, washing

In the Kitchen

Laughing, folding
Working, twerling

Knee Socks

Jumble

My soul yearns.
It wants, it pleads
Like the tide of the ocean
My soul pulls.



Wind.
Blowing softly, lightly playing
Like sheets dancing in space
The wind blows.


Warm.
Joy in a scientific form
Like the smile of a child
It warms me.

Luscious Lips

In the last few day I have been on the quest for luscious lips. And I am proud to say, I have them now. Before my lips were always a bit dry, but still full and beautiful. Now, I have been taking care of my good lips and they are always sweetly soft and moist. How did I get lips this way you might ask? Easy. Carry a tube of lip gloss or lip balm with you where ever you go. And when ever you lips dry out a bit, put some on. This will keep them moist.After a few days your lip will stay soft. Just add more lip balm/gloss and you will bet set for spring! I have been using Wetslicks by Cover Girl. It worked wonderfully for me.

Meet Brian...

My goosh, I almost died laughing. This is great.

I'm not a stoner!

The other night I had a sleep-over at one of my friends house. It was a blast! It was her sisters party but I soon because part of the group. (Thank God for wit and humor) After talking for a while, we turned on the Boobtube and got some movies to watch. First we watched Max Payne. It was a strange movie and I don't think I will watch it again. The ending stunk. Very lame. After that we watched Pineapple Express. This movie was *so* funny! But, it was a bad movie because of strong language, and the stuff they talk about.. wow. After that we watched Four Weddings and a Funeral. I will leave that at lame. Very lame. After we watched that we wanted to watch a chick flick, so we turned on Blood and Chocolate. That was a good movie. I like that one. It might have been that I watched it a 3 in the morning, but it was good. I thought the artist in the movie looked like a guy that's coming to live with us this summer. I'll probably watch it again sometime. After that, most people had gone to sleep and the ones who were up wanted to watch something funny. So we watched Hot Fuzz. That was a strange movie. It was funny, but yet really grossly bloody. Not a cool bloody either. It was odd. That movie ended at 6am. After which I went to bed, I was sleepy. But if we had watched something good after Hot Fuzz I would have watched it. The girl who stayed awake watched a TV show.. Then at around 8 we got up and watched Shooter. I like that movie a lot. It had good action and plot. I will watch this again some time.
But what does a bloodshot eye and the title have to do with this? Well after all the movie and after everyone had left the girls mom wanted to go triftstore shopping. I thought "Cool, sounds good to me." But then I went into the bathroom and took a good look at myself. I looked like I was some sort of stoner! My eyes were bright red! "Ok, it will just go away. I'll put on some makeup and I'll look better." No.. That didn't work.. After the makeup was on I looked even *more* like a druggie! It was not fun. So Visine was the savor of the day. Got to love that stuff. Works like a charm. On a side note about Visine, it's the best before photo shoots. It makes your eyes look really good. The whites will be free of pretty much any red lines. yep that stuff is great. Anyways back to crazy eyes and to many movies. I got home and I had to meet with my debate partner. I was so sleepy, I wanted to die. I got to bed at 11pm and had to get up at 9am today. The point? Don't stay up til 6 watching movies.

Things I hate.

Things I hate. Why should I write about the things I hate? Well, because it gives an outlet for my hate.

1. Waiting for things in the cold. I hate this. Today I had a lot of this. Gack. It’s the worst. I had to sit outside of my math class in the freezing cold until my teacher came and unlocked the door. I had made tea, and I wanted to sip is as I sat there freezing. But it was to hot! I burned my mouth! So I’m sitting there frozen, with a burned up mouth. Not fun. Then after class was over I had to wait to get picked up. So I had to sit, cold again. But this time my tea was cool enough to drink, so that was nice. And I had a good book to read, so that was nice as well. I still hate waiting in the cold though, even with tea and a good book.

2. Dirty mirrors. This is so annoying! We have two large mirrors in our bathroom and because Sister always blow-dries her hair and blows her hair as she’s putting hair spray in it, the mirror gets plastered with dried up hair spray. How gross is that? I should probably clean it if it bugs me so much…

3. Halting music. I use the music site Imeem. Sometimes, and it’s been happening a lot, the music will stop. It’s like the site freezes. And so you’re jamming out, and then after the song it stops. It’s very lame. Then I have to restart the page and click on the song I want. Already while writing this post I have had to do that twice. Gerrr. The thing is I don’t have the mullah to buy the songs I want, so I’m stuck with Imeem.

4. Awkward silence. Goodness this is the worst! You are all talking and laughing and having a great time, and then someone says something and you all stop. And it’s very awkward. And you don’t know what to say to break the awkwardness. It’s even worse when you are the one who started the silence. No fun at all. This tends to happen to Brother One a lot. And them I stuck there not knowing what to do. This is not fun. I will have to find something to say when this happens…

5. Musicless math. Math is the one time I get to have fun and do school at the same time. I can listen to my music, jam out, sing, lip sink, and all that fun stuff and get my math done. But when you do not have music on hand, you are forced to dredge through boring nothingness. This brings be back to the fact I have no money to by songs for my iPod. I need cash…

6. Being Jobless. I figured I have talked about this already, so might as well make it a point. I hate not having money!!! I hate spending money, if I don’t have the same amount or more coming in. This was the most wonderful thing about having a job. I could go out to coffee, buy things I wanted (like art supplies), treat people to movies, and stuff of the like. But now, I have no money coming in! I don’t want to see the money I have evaporate. Aghh, I need a job. You might be wondering, “What happened to your job?” (probably not, but maybe..) You want to know what happened to my job? This is what happened, the economy happened. I worked at a cute tea shop, and made good money. Tips were awesome, and wages weren’t to bad either. But no one wants to buy tea when they have house bills that need to be paid. So the shop went under. And with it all the jobs. And with all the jobs, me. Oh well, I’m just glad I saved my money when it was coming in. The sad thing is, I have to pay for tournaments. (my music just died again…) As I have to pay for these tournaments myself, my money vanishes. I need a job. But there are no open jobs right now, with this darn economy. “I wanna punch the economy in the face!” Got to love e*trade babies.

7. Possessive people. This really irks me. I have a good friend, who does this a lot. I really like him (as a friend), and he’s great. But if anyone is possibly interested in me, he will be really cold to them and try to get me to not talk to them or be around them. It really, really gets on my nerves. At nationals last year he did this. I almost went crazy! I might be very mean, but you know what I did? I went and talked to and hung out with all the people he wanted m e to say away from! Ha! Take that! Errg.

romantic

- "Our love fern! You let it die!"

- "No, honey, it's just sleeping."

Heh heh! I flip for chickflicks. So wonderful. The other night we watched How To Lose a Guy in 10 Days. It's so funny!

I want a Love Fern...

Valentine’s Day

Love is in the air and I'm chowing down on Sweethearts!

On the Roof

Up On The Roof (Single/LP Version) - The Drifters

First Concert

Mile Away - Capital Lights







We went to this amazing concert with Phimont, Roderdam Novermber, and Capital Lights. It was so much fun! We all lost our hearing,and had a blast. I even got Phimont and Capital Lights to sign my shoe! :-P It was so much fun and I loved every sec. of it. The photos were taken by Victoria Asbenson.

Be Happy

I crave the life of ease and laugher. Joy in all things and just going with the flow. I will try to do this in my life now, but I can't wait to get dreads!

My heart

Surf City

This week we are heading down to the wonderful Huntington Beach. I cant wait to dig my toes into the silky wet sand and breath in the song of the waves. I have my cut-off jean shorts packed and my bikini as well. My milk white skin is going to drink in the warmth of the 80 degrees weather. My hair is going to flick in the sea breeze and my soul shall be re-charged. I crave to break out of the cold and death of winter and burst into the joy and warmth of the sun. Sand angels wait for me on the breaking waves. I rush to meat them. Sand in your hair, in your nose, in your mouth, in your toes. Hot sand, Cold water. The Yin Yang of the beach completes the circle, in the most wonderful way.




Risa and I are going to have a photo shoot. I can't wait to have new facebook pictures!